Happy Balloons

Photos by Travis McKeithan. We had a blast doing some light and airy shots. His usual work tends more towards the darker stuff, but I guess I inspire him to go a little outside he box. ;)

Photos towards the bottom NSFW

Black Lingerie

Another set from my shoot with photographer Travis McKeithan . Black bra and undies and a whole lot of fun in he studio. And this isn't even the last set! Travis always has so many ideas and themes. I truly appreciate his work and creativity.

Happy International No Diet Day

Most of you know by now that I struggled with an eating disorder (EDNOS) for over ten years. The thing that put me in recovery was fat acceptance. Before fat acceptance I suffered through diet after diet. Calorie counting was my thing. All in the name of thinness- a goal I never reached. I've also struggled with hypothyroidism for over a decade and bipolar for about two decades- both of which cause weight gain. I blamed myself for the longest time for being fat. Nevermind that it was clear that my genetics were working against me as every woman in my family is fat. Nevermind that these diseases were working against me. Nevermind that I ate less than anyone I knew, my willpower obviously not being a question. No, it was still all my fault. Because of this self blaming and internalized guilt and hatred I often felt depressed and suicidal.

After I read Lessons From the Fat O Sphere by Kate Harding and Marianne Kirby that all fell away. The depression, the suicidal thoughts, the self blame and hatred and guilt. I threw away my scale and stopped counting calories. I followed intuitive eating habits and my diet balanced out. I never gained weight, or lost it either. So I stayed the same size regardless of whether I was dieting or following HAES, but with fat acceptance I was healthier and happier. Nothing can compare to that. All the fat haters out there can't argue against health or happiness. They can't say that being suicidal was better than being mentally stable. Or, if they do, they'll show themselves for the bigots they are. If it's all about health then I'm much healthier now than I ever was before while hating myself.

"International No Diet Day is an annual celebration of body acceptance, including fat acceptance and body shape diversity. This day is also dedicated to promoting a healthy life style with a focus on health at every size and in raising awareness of the potential dangers of dieting and the unlikelihood of success; the Institute of Medicine summarises: "those who complete weight loss programs lose approximately 10 percent of their body weight only to regain two-thirds within a year and almost all of it within five years." The first International No Diet Day was celebrated in the UK in 1992. Feminist groups in other countries around the globe have started to celebrate International No Diet Day" -Wikipedia

In other words, it's a day to celebrate the diversity and uniqueness of every body. A day for people like me to speak up and say that living a healthy happy life is far better than any hateful, harmful diet out there. Since 95% of diets fail and often leave dieters heavier than when they started, it seems like a no brainer to love your body, to feed it and nourish it, to move it, and to respect it. And none of those things mean losing weight. And let's not forget that health is multi dimensional and it's not a moral obligation. 

So happy international no diet day everyone! It's a good day to make a resolution of self love and acceptance. 

Little Black Dress

Photos by Travis McKeithan.

Spring is Here

I don't know about you, but May seems to finally be marking some Spring weather. Even though the first day of Spring was back in March we've had plenty of cold and dreary days. The first of May is an ancient spring holiday that's celebrated with much partying. In Pagan terms it's a fertility holiday. I'm just going to show off the Spring part though. ;) With my pretty spring dress and wonderful photographer Travis McKeithan. This is just the first set of several so watch for more!

No Makeup Mondays- April

I want to thank Functional Girl on facebook one more time for turning me on to the no makeup mondays idea. The idea is that everyone is beautiful despite what the beauty industry would have you believe. A multi billion dollar industry trying to sell you false beauty? Who'd have thought it? Anyway, if you friend me on facebookk (FatGirl Posing) you get to see these updated every week. So here's your April photos with no makeup. Feel free to friend me and post your own photos on my page for me to see. :) I'd love to see all of you and your natural beauty.

Fat and Naked

Happy birthday to me! Happy birthday to me! Yes, it's my birthday and a perfect day to post these gorgeous photos from Bryan Regan Photography from yesterday's shoot. They're so perfect they look like oil paintings and I'm in love with each and every one of them. Even though they show off a lot of parts of me that I don't like, when I was taking them I didn't feel self conscious in the least. I felt like a work of art.

Every time I do a nude shoot I still struggle. The process has gotten easier over time though and I'm starting to feel proud of my naked body and view it as something beautiful and unique. I  have small boobs, big thighs, a kinda flat butt, but I don't care. At least not right this moment. This morning I tried on my new fatkini  and felt very badly about my breasts and their size. Another good reason to post these photos! To show everyone and myself that it doesn't matter. All bodies are beautiful no matter what.