Working on it

As a fat acceptance activist, I am not immune to body woes. Especially as I struggle with bipolar, including paranoia and anxiety, I'm constantly aware of not only what the world around me may be thinking, but I'm pretty darn convinced that they're thinking those things at me most of the time. It's rare that I can go out in public and feel smokin hot when I understand that most of the people around me view me as gross and ugly. I worry what my lover thinks and I worry what my family thinks, especially as they all constantly go on diet after diet to lose weight, I worry what my friends think, and I worry what society thinks.

I worry. A lot.

It's nice to think those that we look up to have no issues of their own. That they're strong and powerful and perfect. I know that's how I feel about my heroes. I'd like to think that I am that to other people, to some of you. But the truth is that we're all human and we all have those days. You know the ones.

And maybe that's why I've hit a bit of a writer's block about fat acceptance. I know I haven't posted a text post in a while and I apologize for that. If it makes you feel better I'm still making regular posts at fiercefatties.com, but I've neglected my own blog. I just want you to know that I'm working on some things, personally, and knowing that I have so many wonderful fans gives me strength and the motivation to continue improving my self image.

Razors and Pins **trigger warning**

**Trigger Warning for depictions of self harm and suicide**

edit: oops, guess I should have mentioned that the blood is, of course, fake blood- just corn syrup, cocoa powder, and red food dye.

I finally got the photos from this shoot which I did back in January. I haven't done a lot of angsty or depressive photoshoots, but I wanted to explore it and Anthony Thomas volunteered for the job. It took me forever to hang all those damn razor blades and, yes, the safety pins are really stuck through my skin- it started to hurt about half way up, but hey, it's for art, right? No one can say I don't go the extra mile! As always, follow my flickr page to see complete sets- I never post all of the photos from a shoot on my blog- it's usually just too many photos.

Also I'd like to point you to the TWLOHA website. The "To Write Love on Her Arms" campaign is one dedicated to raising awareness about depression and self injury. Please support them and their cause and let your friends, family, and loved ones know that you support them in their struggle.

incorporating my dermographia